Stabilizing

A month in Sweden and Im slowly getting used to new routines and being here
No half packed bag in the corner
No plans of leaving just now
No immediate escape

Trying to exchange panic with active momentum
To build my energy and ideas
Into something that will one day make me fly
A bit unclear
If Im really here, or only in transition?

Most days the connection is strong
and comforting like a worn out jumper
A longing that I want to have
Memories that keeps me centered
Nights of feeling too far

Im not unhappy here
Its a different kind of space and time

Africa in the sky

You say

You say there is a plan
Im thinking; does it involve you?
You say I will get all I wish for
Can it start now?
You say it will all fall into place, just the way it should be
Im wondering and doubting
You say keep the good vibes, keep planning, keep searching
Im not sure what direction
You say Im special and with a purpose, that I will do great things
The greatest thing I can think of is far away
You say everything is possible
I have to listen to you

How I miss...
the feeling of sunshine on my bare shoulders...

Coldness

New year

So this year will be full of good things
It will be a better year
I will laugh even more
Jump higher and
run further
I will find a way that excites me
Soon I will be sure
Energized with the calm knowing
that its all part of the plan
Of my own fate

You say i did pooooffff!
Disappeared
But to do that I first had to do pop...
up in your life.