Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Sometimes, no most of the time, I just wonder...

does anyone give a shit?

about me

To want it all

I want you, someone, whoever, with deep desire, lust and passion
Not to be linked to, not to be entangled to, but to consume...hungry on lust and no promises
Something casual and cold, a desire kept burning by random coincidences and timing
To be able to not speak about it, to just move and shift and flee

I want a companion, someone for the lonely hours between "must's and do's" that gets me
A person who adds spectacular thoughts on a normal morning and finds me more beautiful when I'm not sure, when I'm clueless and chewing on a apple like a maniac
He, who will want my soul more than my body, and rests close knowing I'm safe

Just not sure he could be the same person

Sunday, October 18, 2009

I just want attention

I just want love and attention
I just want to feel desired and needed
I just want someone to go to the extremes for me

I just want to feel special
For being me

Monday, October 12, 2009

Same same but different

I went to Ghana, 8 days on my own, without a plan.
My own solitude sacred me.
The newness of a unknown place made me put all my thorns out.
I dint realize that Ghana was a softer version of Kenya.
Where people only wanted me to smile.
Where no one wanted to rob me of possessions or experiences.

In between my thoughts. I saw a new landscape outside the bus window. I strengthened myself in knowing I can do this. I can manage. I can experience, without anyone.

And someone told me, over and over again, the truth, the simplest of thoughts;
I will be fine