New adventures

Im staring to feel excited about my adventure
Im starting to feel midly nervous
But Im worth it. Im worth this.
Colombia and Peru. The names themselves sounds so exotic and tasty.
Three and a half weeks for my own exploration, my own pleasure and my own way...
Bring it on!

Im so starving for love and attention
A chat with someone that cares

That I rather be alone

Moving forward

I need to keep moving forward
With myself
With you
With my thoughts

A truth that brought me off track
Knocked the air out of me
Seeing it differently now?
Not really
Still looking ahead
Today is just a stepping stone
To a sunnier place

Intuition

Should I be glad
that my intuition sends me alarms
makes me feel sick
and forces tears for nothing?

Should I be grateful
that its so strong that I cant ignore it
that I pick up the phone
and make the call?

Not knowing
Almost feeling
Doubting
Demons in my mind
Intuition?

So here I am, waiting for your words.

More horsy stuff

Lipstick Queen

Just finished this book.
And I have to say I liked it.

Cant help but to envy Poppy King´s success, drive and motivation. As well as her fabulous idea.
It gives me hope that one day I will have done something similar myself.

More snowy stuff

Sometimes I feel like there is no space to breathe
My thoughts are jamming up every space and there is no escape
Luckily there are trees
Knee deep snow
And silence

So I made this angel for you
I made this angel for me

Hope she will bring some luck

Winter by horse

 

There is still just soooo much snow here. Cant believe it!  Running in it is hard and tough, riding in it is quite lovely. Im slowly getting to know my new friend "Mildred" and today, for the fist time, I think I had the thought that "wow, Sweden is not that bad...clean air and wide space"....

Im afraid though...of getting stuck here.

Stabilizing

A month in Sweden and Im slowly getting used to new routines and being here
No half packed bag in the corner
No plans of leaving just now
No immediate escape

Trying to exchange panic with active momentum
To build my energy and ideas
Into something that will one day make me fly
A bit unclear
If Im really here, or only in transition?

Most days the connection is strong
and comforting like a worn out jumper
A longing that I want to have
Memories that keeps me centered
Nights of feeling too far

Im not unhappy here
Its a different kind of space and time

Africa in the sky